Grosse Neuigkeiten/Big News

Nun sitze ich hier zu Hause in Österreich in der Wohnung seit Tagen mit einem kranken Kind fest.

Und doch war Weihnachten - immer meine liebste Zeit im Jahr - nochmal extra besonders dieses Jahr.

Der Holde stellte mir nämlich DIE Frage aller Fragen!

Auf Knien mit geöffnetem Ring-Kästchen in der Hand und selbstgeschriebenem Gedicht.

Und ich sagte JA! :-)

I am stuck back home in Austria in the flat with an ill child for days.

But in spite of that this christmas - always my favourite time of the year - was extra special.

Because my love popped THE question of all questions!

On his knee, with the little ring case open in his hand reciting his own poem.

And I said YES! :-)

An mein kleines Schätzchen/To my little darling

Um diese Uhrzeit vor einem Jahr war dein Daddy komplett k.o. und ich high vom Hormoncocktail - und du mein Kind, gerade ein paar Stunden auf der Welt, nachdem du im Pool in unserem Wohnzimmer geboren wurdest, schliefst friedlich auf mir wie ein kleiner Wurm und glücklich von meiner Brust trinkend. Und heute ein Jahr später sind dein Daddy und ich beide k.o. nach diesem schönem Tag, deinem 1. Geburtstag und du schläfst friedlich neben mir, wie ein grosser Wurm und glücklich von meiner Brust trinkend.

Es war ein Wahnsinns-Jahr, ich habe soviel gelernt, ich habe soviel gelacht, ich habe soviel geweint (diese Hormone) und ich habe soviel geliebt. Danke, dass du in meinem Leben bist, mein kleiner Schatz.

Ich wünsche dir nochmal alles Gute mein kleiner Petzi!
Du bist das Licht in unserem Leben, der Stern in unserem Universum,
Ich liebe dich mein Kind.

At this time a year ago your Daddy was completely shattered and I was high on a hormone cocktail - and you my child were just a few hours old after I gave birth to you in the pool in our living room, you slept peacefully like a little caterpillar on my chest and drank happily from my breast. And today one year later both your Daddy and I are completely shattered after this wonderful day, your 1st birthday and you are peacefully asleep next to me like a big caterpillar and happily drinking from my breast.

It was an amazing year, I have learned so much, I have laughed so much, I have cried so much (those hormones) and I have loved so much. Thank you for being in my life my little darling.

I wish you a very happy Birthday again my little Petzi!

You are the light of our life, the star of our universe,

I love you my child.

Feierlichkeiten/Celebrations

Das kann es ja nicht geben, dass ich nur noch ab und zu mal poste!

Schluss mit lustig!

Ab jetzt wird wieder regelmässig gebloggt und Bilder hochgeladen!

Drum auch dieser 2. Post am selben Tag, welcher auch mein 100. Eintrag ist!

It cannot be that I just blog every now and then!

Enough is enough!

From now on I will blog and upload pictures regularily!

Hence the 2nd post in one day which is also my 100st post!

Ryan und ich haben uns heute vor 4 Jahren kennen gelernt!

Hier nochmal meine Nachricht an ihn vom letzten Jahr - und ja er ist tatsächlich ein wunderbarer Papa geworden!

Ryan and me met today 4 years ago!

Here again my message to him from last year - and yes he indeed turned out to be a fabulous daddy!

Im Englischen gibt es den Ausdruck "they are like two peas in a pod" - was soviel heisst wie die sind so eng, so ähnlich - gleichen wie ein Ei dem anderen. Wir haben ja jetzt ein Baby - drum sind wir natürlich wie drei Erbsen in der Schote!

Hier meine gehäkelte Interpretation des Ausdrucks als kleines Jahrestags-Geschenk!

We've always been like two peas in a pod - but we have a baby now so of course we are like three peas in a pod these days. This is my crocheted interpretation of this saying - as a little anniversary gift!

Papi-Erbse

Daddy-Pea

Mami-Erbse

Mummy-Pea

Baby-Erbse

Baby-Pea


Erbsen-Familie

Pea-Family




I love you Ryan

A message for Ryan

Today 3 years ago we met.
Today 3 years ago my life changed.

There I was with squinting eyes because I couldn’t see without contacts.
There you were already watching me.
Finally we met.
You introduced yourself - full of confidence.

And all I saw was that smile.
That sheepish smile. All these sparkling teeth. Those dimples.
Still completely taken by your smile I noticed your eyes.

The group sat down and everyone was asking you questions as they haven't seen you in a while and all you did was answer - me!

Me who hasn’t said anything yet apart from my name, me who didn’t know you at all.

And you just looked at me, only talked in my direction – still that smile – as if I were the only person in the world. And I wondered – are the others not noticing?
Then we all changed location and you were suddenly by my side. Within seconds I felt secure. Strangely secure. You flirted. I responded. I backed off when you told me your age. You flirted more and had me convinced – within seconds. I was lost – in you. Forever.
I took you home that night.
Not knowing what lies ahead but already sensing that this is different.

You were different.

Today 3 years ago.

One of the first pictures together - the day I tried on an engagement ring.

A very happy day.

Then we met again. Our first offcial date. You wore my favourite jumper on you.
There we sat. In the alcove by the little window.
We talked, we kissed. We talked, we ate each other.
Your glasses were all smudged by my make-up.
Again I took you home. And then I knew. I am in love. Madly.

The next weeks are a hazy blur of wonderful memories.
You just swept me off my feet.

You gave me all the security in the world.
And I trusted you. Unconditionally.
All the troubles you went throught with V. – not a single moment of doubt I had.
Because of the total commitment and security you gave me.

A few months later we moved in together.
And something special became something incredibly special.

Another few months later we went through a hard spell.

I didn’t consider it as hard.

I had you.

I didn’t care what you earned – or not. I still don’t.

A longer while later we decided to try for a baby.
That moment we decided - I was put into a trance.
An incredible mesmerizing trance.
Full of love. For you.
4 months later I held the test in my hand. Couldn’t wait to wake you.
But restricted myself to tell you a little later in the day – the way I wanted to.
That afternoon your smile got even bigger.
I will never forget that smile.

Ry my love, my life, my everything. I love you so much.
I tell you everyday and I want to tell you every minute.
Not only am I madly in love with you – also with myself, the me I became, because you make me a better person. You made ME.

Together we made our little baby.
I know you will be – you are already – the perfect Daddy and we will love our little boy as much as we love each other.